Romania: God Of The Promise

My heart was heavy before coming on this trip. I was afraid and so much was unknown. I got to the point of almost not wanting to go at all. The devil had his hold on my heart which caused me to doubt why the Lord would even send me to Romania. In this moment, it didn't matter that I had been called there, my comfort was my top priority.

Oh how foolish was I to doubt the God of the universe who holds all things together.

No language, no religion, no culture, no circumstance is too great for our almighty, all-powerful God. My lack of experience with all of these things was holding me back from seeing the mission in full view. I was called to make disciples of all nations. I was not called to be comfortable. I was not called to be familiar with my surroundings. I was not called to be the most equipped missionary on the planet. I was called to love and serve for the glory and worship of God.

God is not limited by the things of this world. All things are possible with God (Matt. 19:26). When he called me to lead this trip, that was his way of promising me that he would be with me. The devil wanted me to doubt that God would break his promise. God has already fulfilled the greatest promise through his son Jesus with our salvation. My doubt in him was saying that, "Jesus wasn't enough proof of your love for me." I'll say it again:

Oh how foolish was I to doubt the God of the universe who holds all things together.

Even in my discomfort, the Lord was glorified. My discomfort was my obedience. Being obedient is always so difficult because it is not a natural behavior for man. We are naturally selfish and want to obey ourselves before we obey other people. I wanted to obey myself and give into my fear. "Be afraid, doubt yourself, you are incapable." These were the lies roaring in my ear.

But here is what I learned from Romania about those lies: if I continue to let these lies rule me, no one will ever hear or know the truth. Romans 10:14 says "How then will they call on him in whom they have believed? And how are they to believe in him of whom they have never heard?" People will not believe there is truth if all they hear are lies. I am incapable of sharing the truth if I'm living a lie. I am incapable of leading people with integrity if I am living a lie. We have one authority, one truth, and one God. There are people who are being fed lies not knowing they are lies. This was my prayer for the people of Romania; that the veils would be lifted from their eyes that they may see the God of the promise, the one who saves (2 Corinthians 3:12-18).

It's so easy to live in fear and allow lies to control the way you live, but where the Spirit is, there is freedom (2 Corinthians 3:17). The Lord is making his name and truth known in Romania. Hallelujah for what he's already done and what he will do.